THURSDAY, DECEMBER 17, 2009
Criticism and what about it
wow... a post after ages of not posting anything got me some attention...
I see that some people are offended by some of the things I posted
but note this...
criticism are greatly needed so that things can improve in future conferences or whatever other activities
without anyone criticising how do you know where you went wrong?
if I'm not wrong there was a speech where the speaker said that leaders are people who are able to take in criticism to be better... to improve...
don't go saying people don't deserve to be interactors just because they criticize you so that you can do better next time
I'm sure that you will agree on some of the things I wrote but maybe you might deny it because generally you're to pissed to think straight...
saying those things doesn't make you much of an interactor either because interactors are leaders and leaders accept criticism and make the best of it but I'm not gonna dwell on that right now...
I wrote 'kids' because basically those who were in the managing committee were younger than me!
they were doing great things that I don't and there was no offends intended
hey I'm much elder than I look than any of you there alright... don't expect me to call you say what... adults??
you said of me being a hater? but I don't hate anyone or anything... I just don't like certain way things are done that's all...
you said I'm immature for criticising? look at your remarks and think about it... if this makes me immature then it doesn't make you much different from me either
I know trying to manage 700 people at one go is hard... who said it was easy? nothing is easy in life - period
generally criticism is all about being able to improve...
know your weaknesses and work on it to make it better
don't go putting up anonymous post in chat boxes scolding the shit out of the blog owner
but I must say thanks because with your criticism I know my flaws and thus this post exists
however I'm not going to edit anything in my previous post so that you can be happy
you're in MY blog, MY territory so like it or not you just have to deal with MY opinion
I'm not going to go on arguing with you with vulgar words slipped in between lines because that doesn't make me a much better person either and its a waste of time anyway
its only MY opinion and you're damn pissed off
if there were 100 comments like this what'll happen?
blow up the whole world to smithereens?
you may not the only one not satisfied with my criticism... I can be having issues like yours maybe 2 or 5 or 10 other anonymous people spamming my chat box in protest too you know...come on and be sporting... look on the bright side... take things in a positive way and life would be much easier to live trust me
I can't stop you from giving your comments so feel free to leave it if you feel like it...
and I can't do anything if you can't accept petty criticism either so that is basically up to you to settle it yourself
I can't think of what other people might think or say about me... all I can give are advice whether you take it or not its up to you
this post is not meant for apologizing, its a comment plus a lil' advice all in one
there is a sketch which had this quote... its my group's sketch actually and hell I agree with it... it goes like this:
"People look but they don't see, they hear but they don't listen, they talk but they don't speak."
got a hell of a meaning if you understand it...
last but not least, thanks for stopping by...
I see that some people are offended by some of the things I posted
but note this...
criticism are greatly needed so that things can improve in future conferences or whatever other activities
without anyone criticising how do you know where you went wrong?
if I'm not wrong there was a speech where the speaker said that leaders are people who are able to take in criticism to be better... to improve...
don't go saying people don't deserve to be interactors just because they criticize you so that you can do better next time
I'm sure that you will agree on some of the things I wrote but maybe you might deny it because generally you're to pissed to think straight...
saying those things doesn't make you much of an interactor either because interactors are leaders and leaders accept criticism and make the best of it but I'm not gonna dwell on that right now...
I wrote 'kids' because basically those who were in the managing committee were younger than me!
they were doing great things that I don't and there was no offends intended
hey I'm much elder than I look than any of you there alright... don't expect me to call you say what... adults??
you said of me being a hater? but I don't hate anyone or anything... I just don't like certain way things are done that's all...
you said I'm immature for criticising? look at your remarks and think about it... if this makes me immature then it doesn't make you much different from me either
I know trying to manage 700 people at one go is hard... who said it was easy? nothing is easy in life - period
generally criticism is all about being able to improve...
know your weaknesses and work on it to make it better
don't go putting up anonymous post in chat boxes scolding the shit out of the blog owner
but I must say thanks because with your criticism I know my flaws and thus this post exists
however I'm not going to edit anything in my previous post so that you can be happy
you're in MY blog, MY territory so like it or not you just have to deal with MY opinion
I'm not going to go on arguing with you with vulgar words slipped in between lines because that doesn't make me a much better person either and its a waste of time anyway
its only MY opinion and you're damn pissed off
if there were 100 comments like this what'll happen?
blow up the whole world to smithereens?
you may not the only one not satisfied with my criticism... I can be having issues like yours maybe 2 or 5 or 10 other anonymous people spamming my chat box in protest too you know...come on and be sporting... look on the bright side... take things in a positive way and life would be much easier to live trust me
I can't stop you from giving your comments so feel free to leave it if you feel like it...
and I can't do anything if you can't accept petty criticism either so that is basically up to you to settle it yourself
I can't think of what other people might think or say about me... all I can give are advice whether you take it or not its up to you
this post is not meant for apologizing, its a comment plus a lil' advice all in one
there is a sketch which had this quote... its my group's sketch actually and hell I agree with it... it goes like this:
"People look but they don't see, they hear but they don't listen, they talk but they don't speak."
got a hell of a meaning if you understand it...
last but not least, thanks for stopping by...
Always look things in a positive way and you'll see the light in it
It does not do to dwell on negative feelings and forget to think
WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 16, 2009
41st District Interact Conference
basically I just got back from the 41st District Interact Conferencewhich was held in INTI-UC in Nilai...
it was said that this was the FIRST conference to be planned and conducted by interactors (which are younger than me damn!)
however I must say I was not impressed by the managing committee
everything was NOT done in a systematic way and it was almost chaos every time
the MC is a lil' soft spoken I suppose...
her voice did not seem to attract any attention and so she was theremaking an announcement over and over and over again butpractically no one was even listening!
but then again have to forgive them as they are 'kids' anyway and its their first time
it was not all fun during the 4 day conference as it was mostlyspeeches, speeches and MORE speeches...
some of the lecturers were kinda fun and entertaining while others were dead boring...
too bad I just got to know about the Rotary International Youth Exchange Program now which is already too late as I'm already over age
I'm actually quite good at sleeping comfortably on a chair right nowlol
they actually got an 'ice breaking' activity outside at 2pm in the afternoon which was freaking HOT!
ah well they're 'kids' after all...
had some "great" experience there during certain "events"
there was even international interactors there!
they were Luca from Germany, Thibaut (pronounced as Ti - bo) from France and Toto from Taiwan
Luca and Thibaut are good looking lol but did not see much of Toto
made quite a number of friends there or better to say acquaintancelol
the performance were quite awesome as some guys danced MJ songs and the audience were cheering like mad
well I think that's about all (roughly anyway)
this week I actually have 4 days of chemi tuition to attend 4 days in a row!
today there was chemi tuition and then I went to watch movie with mum and bro
watched the Princess and the Frog which was quite funny lol
after that went to walk aimlessly for a while
terserempak pulak dengan Yi Ming who cut her long, long hair until become so short and yeng that I did not recognize her
then saw Yvette and Amanda who claims that I had been stalking her *rolls eye*
as though I got nothing else better to do is it?
anyway I believe you owe me a pressie from Shanghai of wherever you went for your holidays (I forgot where you went actuallly!)
after that rushed back for my music lesson...
it was suppose to be guitar lesson but the teacher got fired even before he started teaching me (weird)
so Sarah and I got free theory lessons instead
the teacher was rather nice and she asked how old we were and we said that we were in Form6 and she was like "WHAT? I though you were in Form2 or 3 only"
well it seemed that everyone said that
went to the conference and asked people to guess my age and they say Form3, Form4, Form5 which was obviously all WRONG
when I told them I was 18 and in Form6 they stared at me with open mouths and went "Har... Serious?"and I was like "Yea I'm 18"
some don't even believe that I had to show them prove
another time was when I had to convince a ticket seller at the cinema to sell me Ninja Assasin tickets that I was really 18
people take me for a kid and I wonder why... do I look like one in the first place? I don't think so right...
that's about all for this time
yea I know my blog's kinda rotten but what to do...
lazyand no nice topic to write about
it was said that this was the FIRST conference to be planned and conducted by interactors (which are younger than me damn!)
however I must say I was not impressed by the managing committee
everything was NOT done in a systematic way and it was almost chaos every time
the MC is a lil' soft spoken I suppose...
her voice did not seem to attract any attention and so she was theremaking an announcement over and over and over again butpractically no one was even listening!
but then again have to forgive them as they are 'kids' anyway and its their first time
it was not all fun during the 4 day conference as it was mostlyspeeches, speeches and MORE speeches...
some of the lecturers were kinda fun and entertaining while others were dead boring...
too bad I just got to know about the Rotary International Youth Exchange Program now which is already too late as I'm already over age
I'm actually quite good at sleeping comfortably on a chair right nowlol
they actually got an 'ice breaking' activity outside at 2pm in the afternoon which was freaking HOT!
ah well they're 'kids' after all...
had some "great" experience there during certain "events"
there was even international interactors there!
they were Luca from Germany, Thibaut (pronounced as Ti - bo) from France and Toto from Taiwan
Luca and Thibaut are good looking lol but did not see much of Toto
made quite a number of friends there or better to say acquaintancelol
the performance were quite awesome as some guys danced MJ songs and the audience were cheering like mad
well I think that's about all (roughly anyway)
this week I actually have 4 days of chemi tuition to attend 4 days in a row!
today there was chemi tuition and then I went to watch movie with mum and bro
watched the Princess and the Frog which was quite funny lol
after that went to walk aimlessly for a while
terserempak pulak dengan Yi Ming who cut her long, long hair until become so short and yeng that I did not recognize her
then saw Yvette and Amanda who claims that I had been stalking her *rolls eye*
as though I got nothing else better to do is it?
anyway I believe you owe me a pressie from Shanghai of wherever you went for your holidays (I forgot where you went actuallly!)
after that rushed back for my music lesson...
it was suppose to be guitar lesson but the teacher got fired even before he started teaching me (weird)
so Sarah and I got free theory lessons instead
the teacher was rather nice and she asked how old we were and we said that we were in Form6 and she was like "WHAT? I though you were in Form2 or 3 only"
well it seemed that everyone said that
went to the conference and asked people to guess my age and they say Form3, Form4, Form5 which was obviously all WRONG
when I told them I was 18 and in Form6 they stared at me with open mouths and went "Har... Serious?"and I was like "Yea I'm 18"
some don't even believe that I had to show them prove
another time was when I had to convince a ticket seller at the cinema to sell me Ninja Assasin tickets that I was really 18
people take me for a kid and I wonder why... do I look like one in the first place? I don't think so right...
that's about all for this time
yea I know my blog's kinda rotten but what to do...
lazy
Every choice you make is only either right or wrong
There is nothing else in between...
TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 17, 2009
Black Magician Trilogy Sequel?
To all Black Magician Trilogy fans~~ (you know who you are)
It seems that there is a sequel to Trudi Canavan's Black Magician Trilogy *delighted*I hope its true though as I got it from a website
The Magician’s Apprentice(Prequel to the Black Magician Trilogy)
Kyralia is home to many magicians and their apprentices. Tessia dreams only of following in her father's footsteps, but women do not become Healers and all she can hope for is to become an assistant. When her father is visiting their town’s Magician, Tessia is cornered by a visiting Sachakan magician who assumes he can treat Kyralian servants like the women slaves of his homeland. In fighting him off, she manifests a natural magical ability. Tessia must become an apprentice magician or she will be exiled to protect the village from her uncontrolled powers. As she learns, Sachakan magicians intent on reclaiming the lands their empire once ruled make increasingly vicious attacks on Kyralian and Elyne villages, and Tessia finds both her skills as a magician and healer are in demand. And as the Magicians of Kyralia come together to defend their land, all wonder how they can possibly win a war against the powerful and ancient Sachakan Empire.
The Traitor Spy Trilogy(Sequel to the Black Magician Trilogy)
Book 1: The Ambassadors’ Mission
Book 2: The Rogue
Book 3: The Traitor Queen
Sonea is horrified when her son, a year past graduation, volunteers to join a group of Guild Ambassadors traveling to Sachaka. When word comes that he has gone missing she is desperate to search for him, but she cannot leave without breaking the law that prevents black magicians from leaving Imardin.When Cery comes to her for help after most of his family has been murdered, she learns that the Thieves have been waging a deadly underworld war for several years. Suspicious deaths have the Guild worrying that rogue magicians may be involved. Gillia, a novice from the servant class, is mostly ignored in the wars between low and high class novices. She and her best friend are more interested in hidden knowledge. When her friend finds books on black magic they both can’t resist experimenting.And Lorkin, Sonea and Akkarin’s son, learns that the black magicians of Sachaka are not the only dangerous and secretive power within that ancient and wasted land.
It seems that there is a sequel to Trudi Canavan's Black Magician Trilogy *delighted*I hope its true though as I got it from a website
The Magician’s Apprentice(Prequel to the Black Magician Trilogy)
Kyralia is home to many magicians and their apprentices. Tessia dreams only of following in her father's footsteps, but women do not become Healers and all she can hope for is to become an assistant. When her father is visiting their town’s Magician, Tessia is cornered by a visiting Sachakan magician who assumes he can treat Kyralian servants like the women slaves of his homeland. In fighting him off, she manifests a natural magical ability. Tessia must become an apprentice magician or she will be exiled to protect the village from her uncontrolled powers. As she learns, Sachakan magicians intent on reclaiming the lands their empire once ruled make increasingly vicious attacks on Kyralian and Elyne villages, and Tessia finds both her skills as a magician and healer are in demand. And as the Magicians of Kyralia come together to defend their land, all wonder how they can possibly win a war against the powerful and ancient Sachakan Empire.
The Traitor Spy Trilogy(Sequel to the Black Magician Trilogy)
Book 1: The Ambassadors’ Mission
Book 2: The Rogue
Book 3: The Traitor Queen
Sonea is horrified when her son, a year past graduation, volunteers to join a group of Guild Ambassadors traveling to Sachaka. When word comes that he has gone missing she is desperate to search for him, but she cannot leave without breaking the law that prevents black magicians from leaving Imardin.When Cery comes to her for help after most of his family has been murdered, she learns that the Thieves have been waging a deadly underworld war for several years. Suspicious deaths have the Guild worrying that rogue magicians may be involved. Gillia, a novice from the servant class, is mostly ignored in the wars between low and high class novices. She and her best friend are more interested in hidden knowledge. When her friend finds books on black magic they both can’t resist experimenting.And Lorkin, Sonea and Akkarin’s son, learns that the black magicians of Sachaka are not the only dangerous and secretive power within that ancient and wasted land.
THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 12, 2009
The Black Magician Trilogy
The Black Magician Trilogy by Trudi Canavan are indeed fascinating books. I do recommend these books to readers who like heavy reading and fantasy. I seriously could not seem to put down the book once I started reading it - highly addictive!! Every turn of the page make you seem to want to know more, putting you on the edge and thus the flipping of the pages never seem to cease. I can read on and on and on if there were no interruptions. Time seemed to fly bywhen I'm reading and before I knew it it was late at night. Its hard to stop reading when you're so curious to know what happen next. A few days ago, my mum called me out for dinner and I just gave her a short reply, acknowledging her call but somehow I kept on reading. Later on she shouted and I got annoyed but realized that I had her waiting, reluctantly I put the book down and went to dinner. I do try to limit the pages I read because at the speed I'm going, I can just finish the whole series in a mere week but somehow it did not seem to work. So I'm now in the third book. I'm practically blogging to get away from reading because I know I can't stop once I started. The characters are awesome and I'm literally in love with Akkarin, the High Lord!! Sadly he died in the end *scowls* I 'm truly amazed thatTrudi Canavan's imagination and writing can just make another different world seem so real!! To those who had read the books, I think you know this fairly well. I'm a bit sad now that I'm halfway through the third book. Why? Because I don't want the story to end!! Sadly it have to. Planning on getting the Ages of Five Trilogy now and hoping that Amanda can come back with them in tow *cross fingers that she reads this and agrees to get them for me* Anyway, I'm starting to build my Septimus Heap collection now. Hard cover and paperback is the same price so obviously I chose the hard cover. I like hard covered books as they don't spoil easy *chuckles* Actually the synopsis wasn't that catchy but I trust that Amanda's recommendations can be trusted!! I hope she reads this *lol* I'm desperate for the Ages of Five books even if I knew it wouldn't be as good as the Black Magician Trilogy!!
Books make good sources for my imagination...
My imagination is the only thing that provides me solitude...
WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER 11, 2009
A Legacy
went to watch Michael Jackson's This Is It earlier today...
This Is It shown in theatres are actually clips from recordings during his rehearsals for his comeback tour...
but as we all know he passed away before the tour started which is too bad...
based on the rehearsal video, it seemed pretty good which makes me think that the real concert would be much much better...
he was quite a polite and humble guy based on my observations during the 2hour movie...
alas such fine talent is wasted because of drugs *sigh*
anyway... he did leave a legend behind which would be his legacy to the world...
his songs did make a big impression throughout the world...
too bad not everyone appreciates him...
people accused him of this and that and a whole lot of rubbish when he was alive but missed him when he was gone...
so maybe its true that people don't appreciate things until they're gone...
anyway here's a tribute to MJ
he showed us the Man in the Mirror
he tried to Heal the World with the Earth Song
he asked us to Come Together and proved that it doesn't matter if you're Black or White
he taught us to Don't Stop 'Til You Get Enough in life
he showed us the meaning of History and to always Remember the Time
last but not least he reminded us that You are not Alone and to keep up a Smile
his death is not the end but the beginning if only we would heed his words...
this is the beginning... This Is It...
may god bless you...
repent before its too late...
I happened to study Ecology in Biology today...
to my dismay the world is being destroyed because of the greed of humans
the Earth might not hold for the next 10 years to come...
"Nature is trying to replenish what humans have destroyed. The Earth is sick, its like a fever. Stop saying that the government will take care of it, that they will care for the Earth. Who are 'they'? It is us that have to do something about it. It starts with us. You, me, and everybody else."
Everday creates a history...
Every path you take, you're leaving your legacy...
THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 5, 2009
Bad Bad Day
everything turned out bad today...
I guess its just my luck -plain BAD luck-
because my car broke down and can't start
I terpaksa ride motor to school
it was drizzling when I was on my way...
reached school, parked and locked up...
when I stepped out of the 'kandang motor' gate...
SPLASH!!
rain came pouring down like someone just emptied an entire bucket of water over my head
conclusion I was wet all over...
water was dripping from my hair as I ascended the stairs to my class -literally-
I walked into class and was greeted by "Wah what happen to you?"and "You look like you just had your bath" and a few more various versions...
tried to dry myself with tissue paper which of course proved futile -I'm just too wet!-
things didn't just end there...
we had chemi peka today so off to the chemi lab we went...
everything was fine at first with occasional curses because me and my lab partner (SueTeng) kept on getting things wrong much to my annoyance...
when chemi period was over everyone went back to class
excluding some of us who are yet to clean up our apparatus (we finished late)
Pn. Teh left after saying something like 'take care' if I'm not mistaken...
saying goodbye to her, I continued washing the beakers and stuff
went to put the beakers back into the cupboard when suddenly...
PIANG!!
on of the beakers fell... smashing on the floor...
and I don't know how... I cut my hand...
its a minor cut but somehow blood kept oozing out like no one's business...
SuhSian asked me to use her hanky to stop the bleeding but I declined it and went back to class to get tissue (I can't go staining people's hanky with my blood!)
by the time I reached the class, my whole hand was literally covered in blood
I did not realize that until KerPing shouted *lol*
went back to the lab and had the wound bandaged...
so many people fussing over a small thing... amusing really...*chuckles*
anyway thanks to those who are concern but don't worry I'll live...
I would have liked to put a picture of the cuts but I'm lazy to do it...
having a hard time writing as the cuts kept on brushing on the paper which send jolts of pain up my hand...
whatever it is... its just a small matter *lol*
actually already four people from PBE broke lab apparatus including me (unfortunately)
ironically I was thinking how I don't break stuff when the beaker fell...
its still weird because I can't seem to remember how it happened...
I tried replaying that part over and over again in my head and yet I can't seem to find the reason why or how I dropped it...
oh well it doesn't matter now anyway...
I guess its just my luck -plain BAD luck-
because my car broke down and can't start
I terpaksa ride motor to school
it was drizzling when I was on my way...
reached school, parked and locked up...
when I stepped out of the 'kandang motor' gate...
SPLASH!!
rain came pouring down like someone just emptied an entire bucket of water over my head
conclusion I was wet all over...
water was dripping from my hair as I ascended the stairs to my class -literally-
I walked into class and was greeted by "Wah what happen to you?"and "You look like you just had your bath" and a few more various versions...
tried to dry myself with tissue paper which of course proved futile -I'm just too wet!-
things didn't just end there...
we had chemi peka today so off to the chemi lab we went...
everything was fine at first with occasional curses because me and my lab partner (SueTeng) kept on getting things wrong much to my annoyance...
when chemi period was over everyone went back to class
excluding some of us who are yet to clean up our apparatus (we finished late)
Pn. Teh left after saying something like 'take care' if I'm not mistaken...
saying goodbye to her, I continued washing the beakers and stuff
went to put the beakers back into the cupboard when suddenly...
PIANG!!
on of the beakers fell... smashing on the floor...
and I don't know how... I cut my hand...
its a minor cut but somehow blood kept oozing out like no one's business...
SuhSian asked me to use her hanky to stop the bleeding but I declined it and went back to class to get tissue (I can't go staining people's hanky with my blood!)
by the time I reached the class, my whole hand was literally covered in blood
I did not realize that until KerPing shouted *lol*
went back to the lab and had the wound bandaged...
so many people fussing over a small thing... amusing really...*chuckles*
anyway thanks to those who are concern but don't worry I'll live...
I would have liked to put a picture of the cuts but I'm lazy to do it...
having a hard time writing as the cuts kept on brushing on the paper which send jolts of pain up my hand...
whatever it is... its just a small matter *lol*
actually already four people from PBE broke lab apparatus including me (unfortunately)
ironically I was thinking how I don't break stuff when the beaker fell...
its still weird because I can't seem to remember how it happened...
I tried replaying that part over and over again in my head and yet I can't seem to find the reason why or how I dropped it...
oh well it doesn't matter now anyway...
don't blame about people changing...
when changing is what life's all about...
WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER 4, 2009
Just some random rantings
things ain't going as well as I planned (not that I actually did any planning)
end of the year exam results??
you don't wanna know... to make things a lil' easier -it sucks BIG time-
problems after problems come knocking on my door...
and I keep on wondering when the hell is all this gonna end?!?!
endless decisions to make and I always have the feeling I make the wrong choices... is it because I'm just plain stubborn or am I just feeling self-centered?
and to make things worst my life is like what you see in the movies...
great actors... superb drama settings... not to mention the undefeatable "Hollywood class" scripts...
people who pretend they know everything about me when in truth they know absolutely nothing which makes me wonder why...
people tend to "read" my thoughts but keeping quiet and not voicing out doesn't mean I'm agreeing with everything or anything at all... I try to suppress my thoughts so to not spark an argument which I know will last for a long time (no joke!)
sorry to say thatalmost no one knows anything about me... even me...
I guess I'm just unpredictable... sometimes I surprise myself when I thought about things that I'm capable of doing...
regrets in life?
perhaps a lil' of it here and there but believe me... its scarce and I mean it!
life is too short to ponder about past actions that cannot be undone so why dwell over it?
time cannot be undone and its not gonna wait for anyone either so just move on and forget the past...
to gain something you have to lose something of equal or higher value... that is what life is all about...
losing don't have much effect on me though... even if you lose something, you get to gain something new, sometimes better and on top of it all you get to keep the remaining ones...
I'm glad to have gained a lot these days so I guessed I made the right choice to lose some but then again I may be wrong...
it doesn't matter to me that news are flying in different directions and in various forms behind my back...
but note this...
I may not be a perfect friend but I do make a perfect enemy...provoke me and you will regret it for even I have no idea of what I'm capable of doing...
it doesn't matter if I did not "fit in" anywhere either...
I'm a lone ranger... will be and always be... I can do fairly well by myself...
but anyway enough about that or some people might self-declare that I'm bad-mouthing them (another thing that I don't seem to understand.. why?)
the thing is... I don't really like bad-mouthing people or talk bad behind their back but at times I just can't resist any longer because I just can't stand it! gossips ain't really my thing either...
but of course people says otherwise which is so whatever to me...
hell yea they don't know anything about me at all!
however I'm glad that some people actually DO care and those are the people that I least expected to do so but of course I do appreciate it...
do you know that sometimes a change or environment actually do you good?
I missed the time when I was in Sg Sedim with Sarah and SuhSian
the place there is so peaceful and tranquil...
on top of it all the camp wasn't a camp at all it was more of avacation!
relaxing... fresh air... could things get better?
but when you enjoy something time tend to move faster and before I knew it I'm back to where I started...
the stressful life of a sixth former *sigh*
but then again life must go on...
somehow I got a feeling word will be circulating without me knowing after I post this (sorry but I tend to know things at the oddest times)
owh whatever...
I'm just too tired to care about these things anymore...
if anyone feels offended by my post then I have nothing to say because its psychology that you feel that way... its all in the head...
I believe in karma and what goes around eventually comes around...
I'm not saying that I'm a good person as some people regard me as the 'evil' one but note this...
I treat people the way people treat me so if I'm nasty towards you, I think you should know why...
this about wraps up my ranting for now...
until the next session of random rantings...
adioz~
end of the year exam results??
you don't wanna know... to make things a lil' easier -it sucks BIG time-
problems after problems come knocking on my door...
and I keep on wondering when the hell is all this gonna end?!?!
endless decisions to make and I always have the feeling I make the wrong choices... is it because I'm just plain stubborn or am I just feeling self-centered?
and to make things worst my life is like what you see in the movies...
great actors... superb drama settings... not to mention the undefeatable "Hollywood class" scripts...
people who pretend they know everything about me when in truth they know absolutely nothing which makes me wonder why...
people tend to "read" my thoughts but keeping quiet and not voicing out doesn't mean I'm agreeing with everything or anything at all... I try to suppress my thoughts so to not spark an argument which I know will last for a long time (no joke!)
sorry to say that
I guess I'm just unpredictable... sometimes I surprise myself when I thought about things that I'm capable of doing...
regrets in life?
perhaps a lil' of it here and there but believe me... its scarce and I mean it!
life is too short to ponder about past actions that cannot be undone so why dwell over it?
time cannot be undone and its not gonna wait for anyone either so just move on and forget the past...
to gain something you have to lose something of equal or higher value... that is what life is all about...
losing don't have much effect on me though... even if you lose something, you get to gain something new, sometimes better and on top of it all you get to keep the remaining ones...
I'm glad to have gained a lot these days so I guessed I made the right choice to lose some but then again I may be wrong...
it doesn't matter to me that news are flying in different directions and in various forms behind my back...
but note this...
I may not be a perfect friend but I do make a perfect enemy...provoke me and you will regret it for even I have no idea of what I'm capable of doing...
it doesn't matter if I did not "fit in" anywhere either...
I'm a lone ranger... will be and always be... I can do fairly well by myself...
but anyway enough about that or some people might self-declare that I'm bad-mouthing them (another thing that I don't seem to understand.. why?)
the thing is... I don't really like bad-mouthing people or talk bad behind their back but at times I just can't resist any longer because I just can't stand it! gossips ain't really my thing either...
but of course people says otherwise which is so whatever to me...
hell yea they don't know anything about me at all!
however I'm glad that some people actually DO care and those are the people that I least expected to do so but of course I do appreciate it...
do you know that sometimes a change or environment actually do you good?
I missed the time when I was in Sg Sedim with Sarah and SuhSian
the place there is so peaceful and tranquil...
on top of it all the camp wasn't a camp at all it was more of avacation!
relaxing... fresh air... could things get better?
but when you enjoy something time tend to move faster and before I knew it I'm back to where I started...
the stressful life of a sixth former *sigh*
but then again life must go on...
somehow I got a feeling word will be circulating without me knowing after I post this (sorry but I tend to know things at the oddest times)
owh whatever...
I'm just too tired to care about these things anymore...
if anyone feels offended by my post then I have nothing to say because its psychology that you feel that way... its all in the head...
I believe in karma and what goes around eventually comes around...
I'm not saying that I'm a good person as some people regard me as the 'evil' one but note this...
I treat people the way people treat me so if I'm nasty towards you, I think you should know why...
this about wraps up my ranting for now...
until the next session of random rantings...
adioz~
Sometimes I wonder...
Why do I bother doing so much for
people when none ever appreciates it...
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